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two years can change so much.
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| peter. |
[19 Feb 2009|03:01pm] |
i'm in loooove with this little hunk.
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(2 wtf | omg )
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[01 Feb 2009|03:01pm] |
the thing i hate about people who live in san francisco is that they pretend to know everything about the city and talk loudly about it on buses to people visiting from outside the city.
i think i do the same thing, but goddamn is it annoying.
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( omg )
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[19 Jan 2009|11:31pm] |
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eucalyptus caps, a tree made out of curls and ducks in a pond covered in weeds and spots. today i saw the trees breathing. today i ate lunch in a redwood grove and walked through jurassic park, and laughed so hard my ab muscles hurt. i drew a carrot in a tunnel that will last a long while.
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( omg )
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[01 Jan 2009|04:23pm] |
learn as much russian as humanly possible: not to brag, but i'm pretty god at this for a beginner
get a place for next year/work enough over the summer to pay for school/don't go into too much debt: well my fees were waved for school, and i'm paying rent, and i haven't taken out a loan since that one from USF
move to san francisco: yeah. gr8.
branch out in san francisco: i guess. i'm kind of one of those losers that doesn't leave the mission though. but, mexicans rule!
don't be so self-deprecating: kinda failed.
make enough money to go back to poland at some point in 2009: also failed. moving means i pretty much have nothing saved.
pay less attention to boys, more to making good friends and staying good friends: i guess i did make some really good friends from work, and drop-outs from usf, and my roommates. having close friends in the city is much different from having close friends in cambria.
be good to my body (especially my liver): i went vegan and i feel pretty good about that, especially seeing the difference when i'm at home and am forced to eat milk products, and then have stomach cramps for hours. and i guess i drink less, and less frequently.
put that beautiful banjo to use: yes! and i'm really glad that mandolins have the same chords as tenor banjos. now i just need to figure out how to play the tiny tiny strings.
2009:
DECIDE. santa cruz vs. san francisco. masonic vs. stonestown.
wake up earlier, go to bed earlier.
learn mando/banjo well enough to play in public.
write more songs.
write more.
get my bike fixed.
save money.
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[23 Dec 2008|01:31pm] |
after a whole week of waiting and waiting and waiting and things going wrong and everything that could possibly go wrong went wrong i am not road tripping to florida. the universe has had its way and my heart will be where it belongs on christmas.
i think i am finally starting to feel situated in my city. i am applying to sf state for fall semester and probably also uc santa cruz, but things are coming together very nicely here. i think i am even going to get a cat. maybe someday i will fix my bike and restring my banjolina.
we'll see, but for now, i'll just go with the flow.
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(5 wtf | omg )
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[13 Dec 2008|05:32am] |
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wow, i fail at responding correctly to boys that are semi interested in me.
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(1 wtf | omg )
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[10 Dec 2008|03:31am] |
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should i go on a road trip to florida? i wouldn't have to pay for gas, lodging, or a plane ticket back. all i need to do is get work off.
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(4 wtf | omg )
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[04 Dec 2008|01:56pm] |
i am applying to santa cruz for fall quarter if i have 60 units completed by then. that means i can take math as P/F, and a bunch of other shit as P/F, like maybe that russian culture class. i'll probably have to take out more loans than i want to, but that's alright i guess. i wish my rent was cheaper this year so i could actually save some more money, but at the same time i love my housemates and my hood so i can live with that.
also, i really need to fix my bike, restring my banjo, and return that library book...well i guess the library book is a lost cause because i already owe the replacement fee.
i rearranged my room and there is a ton of undiscovered space.
i blew that russian final out of the water yesterday. is that the right phrase? whatever, i did amazingly. i think. and i'm going to start taking private lessons with some middle aged people from my conversational class in the spring i think, some day i will be proficient in this pretty language i don't really care about!
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[30 Nov 2008|03:49pm] |
i spent my entire adolescence hating cambria and now i can't get enough of the central coast. every time i leave my heart breaks.
why can't i just love the place that i'm living in?
i think i'm leaning towards santa cruz next year. i need more nature than the concrete jungle and over abundance of fake trees that is san francisco.
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| i peed on your stoop. |
[18 Nov 2008|03:10am] |
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i will be the first to admit it: i thoroughly enjoy drunkenly marking my territory throughout the streets of san francisco.
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[14 Nov 2008|05:07pm] |
FTW:
:):):) i'm back in bikeland...now all i need is a cat.
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[13 Nov 2008|01:23am] |
i seriously have so much hate just bottled up inside of my i think i am going to explode. i think i need to meditate, or something. nothing is really even that bad.
i think i am going to buy a bike. cool, no?
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[05 Nov 2008|11:12pm] |
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remember remember, the fifth of november!
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[31 Oct 2008|01:29am] |
happy halloween!!
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[28 Oct 2008|02:51pm] |
www.nanowrimo.org
finally, i will do this.
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[27 Oct 2008|12:49am] |
i feel like i have very little to look forward to. i think i would like to leave everything i know and move to a small town, or somewhere with less sirens, less artificial light, less cars, less people i don't want to be around and less people i never want to see again, less concrete. more raw nature, more sincerity, i'd like to see the stars and the ocean every day. i'd like to have a good friend who can reciprocate the nice things i do and listen when i talk to them. i'd like to be important to someone. i'd like to not have to travel an hour to anything i want to go to.
i walked home yesterday after work at 1:30am. it took me about an hour and 15 minutes. i found a bag of bread, some shoes, and a flower the size of my face.
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(3 wtf | omg )
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[14 Oct 2008|01:44am] |
i am now vegan, which is unfortunate, because the cute, funny boy who used to work at trader joe's that remembered my name when i couldn't remember his works at the ice cream annexation of bi-rite and their soy chocolate ice cream tastes likes shit; i know it and he knows it. not that i liked ice cream in the first place. and the mysterious bearded boy who writes the snack order at work doesn't talk.
i don't think i'm liked any longer. my stories are worn out and my parents don't even care about what i have to say. not that they don't listen, it just doesn't matter. say what you will, it won't change the fact that nobody calls me any more. i'm in your neighborhood, but you're with your boyfriend or girlfriend or jacking off.
come to san francisco, but i am secondary. i understand. i don't really have anything to talk about anyways.
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(7 wtf | omg )
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